Selena: Rehab was one of the hardest things I've done
Selena Gomez thinks sometimes you "need to feel allowed to fall apart."
In August, the 24-year-old musician canceled the remaining dates of her Revival World Tour and checked into a treatment facility in Tennessee, citing that she was having anxiety, panic attacks and depression as a result of her lupus. "Tours are a really lonely place for me. My self-esteem was shot," she shares in the April issue of Vogue magazine. "I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable."
Gomez goes on to confess that she had a hard time dealing with the pressure of fame and being everything to everyone, especially on social media. "People so badly wanted me to be authentic,” she explains. "I’m not different from what I put out there. I’ve been very vulnerable with my fans, and sometimes I say things I shouldn’t. But I have to be honest with them. I feel that’s a huge part of why I’m where I am."
The "It Ain't Me" singer adds that going to rehab was "one of the hardest things I’ve done, but it was the best thing I’ve done.”
At the treatment center, Gomez gave up her phone for 90 days and participated in group therapy sessions with a small number of women who struggled with similar issues. "You have no idea how incredible it felt to just be with six girls,” she says. “Real people who couldn’t give two sh**s about who I was, who were fighting for their lives."
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